My Second Post

Today in the afternoon,I just started randomly thinking about the future. Everyone I know is either interning somewhere or well atleast has some sort of a plan for the summer. It scares the hell outta me. The only thing that intimidates me in this world is being unprepared for something.Now it's ok if its some sort of a spontaneous competition like a GD,Jam etc etc...that I can handle,but if its something I know about,even if its something I am proeficient at..I just have to practice over and over again,till I get that feeling that I can tackle anything that is hurled at me.

This approach has both its pros and cons,as this has been my mantra in life,right from the beginning.

Let's start with the pros,HELL,WHO DOESN'T LIKE TO BE PREPARED??.....after all its the sensible thing to do,you have an exam,you go home you study over and over again,till the blueprint is in your head.You have a cricket match,you train hard,you practise hard, and you go the next day hoping yu time the ball like you did in the nets.


On most occasions this formula works,but I think sometimes its better just to let instinct take over. You know those big occasions ask for something special,a moment of brilliance,that can only come once you let go and let your instincts take over. Very rarely have I done that,it scares the hell outta me-being not prepared.Maybe that's why I get into a negative frame of mind about somethings. Of course its a risk,but instead of thinking about the payoff if I win,I keep thinking about the consequences if the risk fails.

The very few times I have tried being carefree,and doing things naturally,9/10 things have worked out fine. But still this approach doesn't ever come naturally to me.
Maybe this summer, I will try and do that,you know just lay back a little and relax,and think that yes things do fall in place.